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yesterday saturday

yesterday woke up on 11something in the morning and had a feeling of going to church to ask regarding the service for sunday, but i had another feeling of i will be going for service on that particular afternoon. i changed my clothes and took my bible with me and walked to KLBC, while on the way walking towards the church, i was nervous and scared, but i pray to God that please give me strength and courage and confidence to walk in to that church, i pray to our Father that please lead me to Him, please let me know Him more, and i asked Father to be with me while walking to church. He answered me, He said that " just go, I will be with you, someone from church will welcome you. dont worry.. just go." i was quite worried at first, but when Lord had told me this, i was left nervous, my heart was pumping fast, i can feel my pulse is pulsing hard. i feel that the way to go to the church is very far, even thou the church is just beside KFC, and my house is just end of jalan alor, is actually a 5 mins walk. but i took almost 15 mins to walk there.

finally i entered the church, i saw no one was there, i start to get worry, i know worrying is a sin, i know God is there with me, but still i see no one there, i was scared. i saw a security guard and went up to asked him, what time will be the service for tomoro. he said that is 9.30am, and i asked that is there any service for today, he said no at first, but then he said ''main-main punye adalah'', i was confused, main main yg mcm mana i asked him, then a pastor came, i didnt know that he is a pastor at first, the security guard asked me to asked him, and of course i asked regarding the service for sunday and is there any service for saturday. He said that there is no worship service on saturday, but there is a youth service, that is ROCK fellowship for youth. but i asked him that i am already 22, is it ok that i join the youth, he said why not, there is more older than me is joining this service. And 2 more person came our from the elevator, is a couple, husband and wife, the pastor introduce them to me, and i introduced myself, and the pastor told me that they the leader for the youth service. i asked myself, is it really that coincidence that a pastor and 2 leader of the youth service just came by.? i get to know that the youth service is 3pm, so i thank the pastor and the 2 leader and told them that i will come back again at 3pm.

the moment that i stepped out from the church, i felt relieve and i felt joyful, i was smilling all the way back while walking back home, i felt that the way/road that i am walking back home is shorter and it only took me 5 mins to walk back home, i was joyful, i have no idea why.. i know that all this are God's work, He lead me to church, and He lead the pastor and 2 leaders to welcome me and lead me. i really wanted to thank Him, and He was with me all the time. thank you Lord.

when i reach home, i cleaned the house and took a bath and went back to the church again, i reached the hall about 2.45pm, i didnt know anyone in the service except for the 2 leaders, they asked me to enter the hall, and i saw a bunch of youths is playing ping pong and they were happy, i saw another batch is singing there, i saw another one is sleeping on the chair, i was shock. (LOL).. i choosed a chair and sat down and took my bible out and decided to read it while waiting for the service to start. while i was reading the bible, a girl came over and say hi to me, she introduce herself to me, her name was sumay, she introduce another 4 person to me, one is called andy and another girl, but i couldnt remember her name. sorry, and another is toly and one more also i couldnt remember his name.

when the service start, they asked us to take a chair and wanted to play a game. the game was fun, the game was mainly ice breaking, and we had singing session, i cried while praying and singing. we started to pray before the talk start, 2 leaders came and asked us about the topics that they are going to talk, is BGR, i was blur that what is BGR, i asked sumay, sumay told me that is boy girl relationship. our leader said that he dont want to be in a formal talk, he asked us to sit down on the floor, find a clean spot to sit, but actually, the flood is clean. haha, anyway, we prayed before the talk start.

during the talk were mainly about boy and girl relationships, should we or should not, who should we meet, why, when, and more. it was really a good talk, they talked about marriage, is arrange marriage better than no arrange marriage, they taught us, the meaning of dating and courting, DATING is a form of courtship, and may include any social activity undertaken by, typically, two persons with the aim of each assessing the other's suitability as a partner in an intimate relationship or as a spouse. COURTING is a man's courting of a woman; seeking the affections of a woman (usually with the hope of marriage); "its was a brief and intense courtship. so you are dating or courting. they talked about PARENTAL BLESSING, before you start a relationships, seek for God advice, ask Him is this person the right one?, sometimes, He might not answered you, but He might answer you through your parents, friends or others, when you have seek for your God advice, seek for your parents advice, what do they think about that person that you are interested in.dont start a relationship without parental blessing, they might give you a good answer or an advice. Remember to put God in the first place always. 

sadly they have another session on this saturday and i will be in singapore, sigh, i really wanted to go... we finished the session with praying and i asked sumay regarding the CG and asked toly about the bible study fellowship, i am still thinking whether or not to go for the bible study, coz it need lots of commitment, but i am afraid that i might dont have the time to go. when i reached home, i called up kenn, and he was asking me question, and he said that if i go to church, my character will change in to a form that he dislike, but i asked him, change in the sense in which part, he said he have no idea. wait until i changed d, only he tell me. i was quite tension, i was raising up my voice towards him, i prayed to our Father during our discussion, i really need to discuss with kenn peacefully, He calmed my tension and emotion down, and i started to talk to in slow and cool. when kenn told me all, i felt that there is something around him that makes him to talk like that, i felt that is devil's works that is making him to talk like that so that i will not follow God's way anymore, and i felt that devil is doing something to pull me away from God, from our Father, our Lord. The devil is using kenn to pull me away from You.

I hung up and said good night to kenn and i cried, i cried out loud, and start to pray for him and my family, i could not stop crying, i have no idea why, i stopped for a while and went to toilet and wanted to wash my face, and i find that i felt i could not stand properly and i squated down on the floor and start to cry again. i seek for God's advice, is kenn the right one for me, i know that God had bring him to me, to save me, to pull me out from the way that i have been through last few years, He lead kenn to me, He planned both of us to meet each other in his own way, i was thankful today that God has brought him to me, but i was praying and seeking God's advice, He did not answered my prayer, but i had confidence that God is doing His work to help me. i went to sleep after that. i was tired and having migrain.

today sunday

i woke up 8.30am, i felt that God woke me up and asked me dont sleep back again, i slept back for 5 mins and went to bath straight. after my bath, i changed and on my laptop for a while, and went online for 10 mins. i prepared myself and walk to church for morning service, when i entered, i asked a lady where is the morning service, she told me that is on 1st floor, i thanked her and i use the stairs to go to the hall, i saw the pastor that i saw yesterday, he asked me go in, got the phamplet for this week. i went in and i was searching for the youths, and i saw edmund, he is waving at me, and i was glad that i talked to him about the morning service. for the morning service, we sang, and prayed and another pastor came and talked about UNITY, united we stand, divided we fall, he was talking the book of 1 Peter 1:2 2:3, ''there is a strength in unity. as a family, we must united. REMEMBER! the enemy is out there''  he said that without our united, we are not strong, that's why is important to unite others to join us in christianity, to join our family, to believe in God to accept christ.
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 when the service finished, i was lead by the other youths, to the rock cafe. i did not eat anything due to not hungry, i get to know a girl today name alesa and edward and sherlene, alesa and edward brought me to the ROCK power house, is a fellowship for youth, mainly is bible study for youths. we sang and pray, and we start the session, a sister was talking about the book of Daniel.

what i know is a king promote Daniel to become one of the adminstor of the administrator. another 2 administrator is envy of him and planned to get rid of him. but Daniel was so perfect that the other 2 administor could not find a single mistake, even a small mistake, so they planned a decree that the peoples only can praise the king, if you praise others, you will be thrown into the lions den. and they asked the king to signed the decree so that there is no alteration of any disobey.

but Daniel didnt give up to pray to Lord every day, 3 times a day, He is continue to pray even thou he know there is such law is been made, he went back home and went to upstairs and open his window towards Jerusalem and kneel down and pray to God. the other 2 administrator know that he is still praying towards God he was sent to the lion's den. the king was upset, the king doesn't want Daniel to enter the lion's den, because Daniel is the only one that king believe in due to Daniel characteristics and personality. he is trustworthy, he is loyal and more. but the king could not do anything, due to the signature that he had signed on the decree.

when Daniel was thrown into the lion's den, the king was worried, the king say to Daniel, "May your God . Whom you serve continually, rescue you!" a stone was brought and placed over the lion's den. and the king sealed it with his won signet ring and with the ring of his nobles. the king was worried and could not sleep, at the sun rise, the king got up and hurried to the lions' den. he called to Daniel, Daniel is alive. the lions did not eat him nor touch him,God has sent angel and he shut the mouths of the lions. God has found Daniel is innocent in his sight. Nor have he done any wrong before the king. (Daniel 6: 2-38)

God is the same, yesterday, today and forever. He do not show any partiality towards the one who surrender themselves to Him. learn how to seek for God first before you seek for the problems that you need to settle. everyday we have problems, God will give us problems so that we could grow up from the problems. He had planned everything for us as long as you need to commit your life, your family, your friends, your everything to Him, let Him do it for you, dont worry.

AMEN.!