Book of Heaven is so real by Choo Thomas

"Heaven is so real!", yesterday,i was reading this book and i saw a verse that is,

All nations whom You had made shall come and worship before You, O Lord, and shall glorify your name. For You are great, and do marvelous deeds and wondrous things; you alone are God. (Psalm 86:9-10).

for my understanding for this verse,
worship Him forever, glorify His name to everybody so that people can know who is Him, He is great, and He will bless you, He will do wonderous and miracle things on you, on your life, on your family ,friends, etc. He will protect you,just open your heart and worship Him forever. He is the only God that are worshipping. He is the only Almighty One!

today, i saw a verse in bible, i think God had answered my prayer by leading me to the bible to read it.
i have problems in praying, how to scarifice myself to Him, how to talk to Him, how to go near to Him.

Teach me your way, O Lord, and i will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart, that i may fear your name.
i will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
i will glorify your name forever.  (Psalm 86:11-12)

for my understand:
Lord will teach me His way in lots of way, so that i can walk and follow His word, His path.
Lord has asked me to be tough and obey Him and so that i could fear His name.
Lord has asked me to praise Him with all my heart, offer myself to Him, sacrifice myself, my life, my family to Him. obey the commands He tell me, be loyal to Him, He will help me to go through everything as long as i offer and sacrifice myself, my life to Him.
Lord has asked me to Glorify His name forever, to myself, to others as well.

Lord, thank you for the verse today, you are always there for me,
you had lead me to this verse and you had help me through my brothers.
Lord, i would accept the tasks that you gave me through my family, my friends and my life, i will do anything to go through this tasks,
Father, please bless me with strength and courage and confidence so that i will go through this tasks that you have gave us.
Father, please bless my assignment, i know i have not started my assignment yet, but please lead me to start my assignment, and bless me with confidence to finish my assignment.
Father, please protect my family, my friends, my relatives and blessed my parents due to the crisis that they are facing currently, please blessed them with courage and strength to stand up from the mistake they had done, please blessed my family would forgive the people that had harm us before, that had made my family into pieces.
Father, please lead my parents, kenn, kenn's family and my friends relatives to you, please lead me to lead them to believe in you, to accept Christ, to be loyal and faithful to you, and to serve you forever as their only God.
Father, please blessed me and kenn's relationship to stand, to hold, so that we will not fall into the enemy side. please blessed us with strength & confidence to continue this relationship and let me lead him to you, Lord.
Lord, kenn is unsatified that i go to church to serve you, we will have arguments on that. i am suspecting is evil's act, if is really evil's act, Lord, please help him and save him from the devil's hand. Lord, if this is the work that you are making us strong, or giving me a test, Lord, i willingly accept the test and challenge that you gave me. please bless us with strength, confidence and courage to continue the task and finish the tasks.
Lord please let us have discussion in peace and understand each other during discussion, and Lord, please let kenn understand you, let kenn to serve you too.
Father, please protect all of us from the enemy, so that we will not fall into the temptation of the enemy side.
In Jesus Name, I pray, AMEN.

Pray to our Lord God, our Father, and Praise Him.

when i came back from church today, i got to learnt the Book of Peter and the Book of Daniel. it was good, God is actually delivering His Word of God to us, to learn, to share, to know, to understand.. all we need to do is to learn and accept the teaching that He taught us, He did not taught us by himself, but He taught us through His sons and daugthers, our sisters and brothers.

my brother told me this 23rd of May, there is a global day prayers, so i agree that i would attend at his church, i told him what i have been through yesterday with kenn and i asked him how to pray to God, is there any formal way to pray to God, how to build up a relationship with God, how do i sacrifice myself to God. 

well, my brother replied me, prayer is actually talking to God. all he wants is actually you having a relationship with Him. It need not be any specific style but just talking to Him and asking Him for advice. He will answer you and all the time you will find peace after spending time with Him. my brother told me to check with his blog http://www.growingwithgod.org/ . it is something good that i can read and see how my brother grow in God. my brother said that when i prayed, i will realise that God has shared the burden together with me, like Jesus say, He will share your burden with Him (Matthew 11:28-30).

i have noticed that God had gave me my worries regarding growing with God, the questions that i am worry about, God had used my brother to talked to me, i am relieved. all i need to do is i pray, praying is like talking to Him, He is our Father, we can tell everything to Him, dont be afraid of Him, open your heart to Him, He will accept you in any form, the moment that you accept Him, you believe in Him, He will love you, He will not care that how do you look like, what is your name, where does you come from, and more as long as you believe in Him, accept Him as your only God, He will accept you and forgive the sins that you had made previously. our Father wanted is the communication between the Him and His children.

for challenges that i met with kenn, i just need to talk to God and ask Him is this His will, if not then means it is the evil one then talk to Him to remove the evil acts but if it is not, then it could mean that He is building my character for bigger things in the future which we do not understand, only He knows! then if that is the case, ask God to give me strength to pull through. if God can put me in a situation He will not forsake me.

when my brother told me this, i was having a feeling that is God testing my loyalty, and trust towards Him by using kenn? because i was once neglected Him for few years when i accepted christ when i was 13 and i was once doubted God's power, God's wisdom. or is God doing something for me and kenn's relationship, is our Father building me and kenn's relationship through this task so that we could understand each other more? because we have arguments always. or is Lord building my character for bigger things in the future?

past 3 years, God has brought kenn to save me and pull me back from the wrong path i was doing it few years ago, honestly, i was rebellious and even talk back to my mum, i went our with my friends 5am in the morning, they were not straight (not to offence to anyone), my mum came to the mamak place and ordered me to go back home, but i refused, i talked back by saying NO to my mum, my mum was furious, of course i am afraid of her, at last i followed her back home. my mum was crying and scolding me, my mum drank 2 cans of beer and she did not talked to me for the whole day, my mum went to work at my uncle's shop till 5am another day, she did not sleep at all, she was heartsick.

while she wanted to go back home, my mum got ragged by a motorcyclist and she fell down and hit a short post with her head, she was tired and sleepy, and her head start to bleed. my uncle and aunt fetch my mum to tong shin hospital for suture, when my mum came back home, i was shock, i was scolded by my family, I FEEL GUILTY, my mum did not want to talk to me at all for few days, until i apologize to her that i will not repeat this again to make her heartsick.  at april 2006, i entered a nursing college and i was not that rebellious anymore, but still i am not straight, still playing around, but i did study for my course. In november 2006, i just broke up with someone, and my friends help me celebrated my birthday, one of them that remember my favourite cake is kenn, and after 1 week, in a very coincidence way, that i coupled with kenn until now,

in the past 3 years, i have done lots of things that i hurt my family, my friends, and myself. i have a mistake to tell out to the world, i start to hurt myself by using blade when i was 16, i was heartsick with my grandmother from my father side, she keen nagging non stop and accusing me, i was trying to be patience with her, whatever she say, i just keep quiet, but until one day, i could not stand it and i shouted at her like ''ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh'', she was shock, and i ran into my room and start to take the blade and cut myself on the hand. i was not in pain, i feel ultimately released when i see the blood start to flow out from my hand. my grandmother still stand outside of my room and nag after i shouted at her. i hate her so much during those days. i hate my dad's side family, i hate them. but this habit could not stop whenever i am in stress or tension, i heard voices that keep asking me ''cut, just cut it, you will feel better to cut, just cut it...'', i told my friends about it, my friends thought that i am having mental problem. but i did not see the psychiatric doctor. i still can control my self. i did not pray, i was kinda half half  religion.

i would like to thank you Lord that He save me tru the devil's hand and He been using my family and friends to lead me to Him, to help me but i neglected Him, i turned away from Him, i falled in to the temptation from the enemy side. in year 2008, He lead my elder brother to Him, He lead my 2nd brother to Him as well, usually my eldest brother is the influencer of the family, since me and my 2nd brother is younger than my brother, we usually will follow my elder brother's footsteps. He accepted christ in year 2008, my whole family was shock. trust me, is was a shocking news. since that, my 2nd brother is much more building up his faith towards the way to become a stronger christian, to be much more loyal and more faith towards God. i was following my brother footsteps, but i am still struggling to get to Lord few months ago, it seems to be there is a gap between me and Lord, but i was confirmed that Lord is using my brother and a few friends to lead me to Him. i started to pray before meal, started to pray whenever i have problems, i started to get involved but everytime i wanted to go the church, there is always things to do, over slept, and other as well.

i notice this few days ago, Lord was helping me and leading me to Him through lots of people and things. seriously, without Lord leading my family and kenn to help me and to save and to lead me, i might be more rebellious now, i might not even talking to my parents, my family, i might not even continue my degree course, i might not even finish my nursing course. Without Him, i am just nothing, i really wanted to thank you Lord for everything. i prayed real hard to go to church, i pray the devil will not stop me from going to church, i pray for strength to rebuke the devil and evil spirit that block my ways.

and i did went to church. praise to God's grace, God's power! and after going to church, i learnt to forgive, if i didnt forgive, i will not get forgiveness from God. (Ephesians 4:32)

i called up kenn this evening, he asked me regarding what i learn today from church, i told him what i learnt and i have no idea why are we ending up in arguments whenever i said that i am going to church, or attending those activities, he did not stopped me, but he seems to not satisfied that i go to church, i attend church activities, he raised his voice but he was not shouting at me, but he is really tension while i was trying to cool myself down, and talk to him nicely, but i could not stand it and i raise my voice back to him. at that particular moment, i prayed to Lord that please let me and kenn cool ourselves down, so that we could discuss it in a peaceful way. but end up we argued, but we let ourselves to cool down in a silent environment, even thou we are still on phone, in end of the talking, Praise God, Praise His power, He cool both of us down and we discussed it in a good way, but kenn is still not satisfied that i go to church, he is afraid that i might be very nerd or no night life after i deliver myself towards Lord. i wonder what is happening, but i will prayed again and again, i know that God is doing His things, He will planned for us. 

after i hung up the phone, i kneel down and bow to God and started to pray for the relationships between me and kenn, seek for advice is kenn the right one?pray that God will help my family, because of my family is having problems that we need to face as a whole family, pray that God will blessed me with strength, courage and confidence to continue the tasks and challenges that He had gave me to do. i thank you God for leadinng me to my brother, by giving me an answer and relieve through my brother. i cried and i prayed again. i appreciate Lord are leading me towards Him. 

O Lord Father, i would like to pray that You could blessed me strength, confidence and courage to continue this relationships with you Lord, i would like to say thank you that you tell me the answer i was worrying about through my brother, thank you Lord, thank you Father. i would like to pray that Father you could  blessed my family, my friends and relatives for safe and sound, nothing evil will harm their mental and physically. Father i would like to seek for advice is kenn the right person for me, Father you sent kenn to save me to help me, i know that this relationships with him is longer than others, i know that this relationships is a serious relationship, but Father, i felt that the devil is using kenn to show his tempers and unsatisfied towards me because of i am going to church, i felt that the devil is pulling me away from You Lord, O' Lord, i would like to asked that if you are giving me tasks to test my loyalties and faith and believe towards you through kenn or others, i will accept the tasks that you had gave me, i will not give up that easily, but Father i would like that You could blessed me with strength to continue the tasks. Lord i would like to pray for mum and dad and mybrothers and sister in law would forgive the peoples that have hurt our them in the past or yesterday or today., and i would like to tell Lord that i have forgiven the peoples that hurt me in the past, i will not be angry with my grandmother, my dad's side relatives, and others as well, they might be sinful, but Lord please lead them to You, so that they sins will be clear by You, Lord. Father i would like to seek for forgiveness that i had neglected you in the past, please forgive me sins that i hurt my family, and my self and my friends. Lord please blessed my family with strength and confidence to walk the way that we are given, to walk together, even we fell down, please blessed my family that we could stand up again by Your support and help and blessing. Lord, i would like to thank you that you have lead me to church yesterday and today, You had lead so many peoples to teach me, to lead me, to help me, to support me, i might not be close to the, but i will try my best to be close to them. please Lord, thank you Lord, In Jesus almighty name i pray, AMEN!

God is Good..God lead me to Him.....God is our Father that Loves us in any form.

yesterday saturday

yesterday woke up on 11something in the morning and had a feeling of going to church to ask regarding the service for sunday, but i had another feeling of i will be going for service on that particular afternoon. i changed my clothes and took my bible with me and walked to KLBC, while on the way walking towards the church, i was nervous and scared, but i pray to God that please give me strength and courage and confidence to walk in to that church, i pray to our Father that please lead me to Him, please let me know Him more, and i asked Father to be with me while walking to church. He answered me, He said that " just go, I will be with you, someone from church will welcome you. dont worry.. just go." i was quite worried at first, but when Lord had told me this, i was left nervous, my heart was pumping fast, i can feel my pulse is pulsing hard. i feel that the way to go to the church is very far, even thou the church is just beside KFC, and my house is just end of jalan alor, is actually a 5 mins walk. but i took almost 15 mins to walk there.

finally i entered the church, i saw no one was there, i start to get worry, i know worrying is a sin, i know God is there with me, but still i see no one there, i was scared. i saw a security guard and went up to asked him, what time will be the service for tomoro. he said that is 9.30am, and i asked that is there any service for today, he said no at first, but then he said ''main-main punye adalah'', i was confused, main main yg mcm mana i asked him, then a pastor came, i didnt know that he is a pastor at first, the security guard asked me to asked him, and of course i asked regarding the service for sunday and is there any service for saturday. He said that there is no worship service on saturday, but there is a youth service, that is ROCK fellowship for youth. but i asked him that i am already 22, is it ok that i join the youth, he said why not, there is more older than me is joining this service. And 2 more person came our from the elevator, is a couple, husband and wife, the pastor introduce them to me, and i introduced myself, and the pastor told me that they the leader for the youth service. i asked myself, is it really that coincidence that a pastor and 2 leader of the youth service just came by.? i get to know that the youth service is 3pm, so i thank the pastor and the 2 leader and told them that i will come back again at 3pm.

the moment that i stepped out from the church, i felt relieve and i felt joyful, i was smilling all the way back while walking back home, i felt that the way/road that i am walking back home is shorter and it only took me 5 mins to walk back home, i was joyful, i have no idea why.. i know that all this are God's work, He lead me to church, and He lead the pastor and 2 leaders to welcome me and lead me. i really wanted to thank Him, and He was with me all the time. thank you Lord.

when i reach home, i cleaned the house and took a bath and went back to the church again, i reached the hall about 2.45pm, i didnt know anyone in the service except for the 2 leaders, they asked me to enter the hall, and i saw a bunch of youths is playing ping pong and they were happy, i saw another batch is singing there, i saw another one is sleeping on the chair, i was shock. (LOL).. i choosed a chair and sat down and took my bible out and decided to read it while waiting for the service to start. while i was reading the bible, a girl came over and say hi to me, she introduce herself to me, her name was sumay, she introduce another 4 person to me, one is called andy and another girl, but i couldnt remember her name. sorry, and another is toly and one more also i couldnt remember his name.

when the service start, they asked us to take a chair and wanted to play a game. the game was fun, the game was mainly ice breaking, and we had singing session, i cried while praying and singing. we started to pray before the talk start, 2 leaders came and asked us about the topics that they are going to talk, is BGR, i was blur that what is BGR, i asked sumay, sumay told me that is boy girl relationship. our leader said that he dont want to be in a formal talk, he asked us to sit down on the floor, find a clean spot to sit, but actually, the flood is clean. haha, anyway, we prayed before the talk start.

during the talk were mainly about boy and girl relationships, should we or should not, who should we meet, why, when, and more. it was really a good talk, they talked about marriage, is arrange marriage better than no arrange marriage, they taught us, the meaning of dating and courting, DATING is a form of courtship, and may include any social activity undertaken by, typically, two persons with the aim of each assessing the other's suitability as a partner in an intimate relationship or as a spouse. COURTING is a man's courting of a woman; seeking the affections of a woman (usually with the hope of marriage); "its was a brief and intense courtship. so you are dating or courting. they talked about PARENTAL BLESSING, before you start a relationships, seek for God advice, ask Him is this person the right one?, sometimes, He might not answered you, but He might answer you through your parents, friends or others, when you have seek for your God advice, seek for your parents advice, what do they think about that person that you are interested in.dont start a relationship without parental blessing, they might give you a good answer or an advice. Remember to put God in the first place always. 

sadly they have another session on this saturday and i will be in singapore, sigh, i really wanted to go... we finished the session with praying and i asked sumay regarding the CG and asked toly about the bible study fellowship, i am still thinking whether or not to go for the bible study, coz it need lots of commitment, but i am afraid that i might dont have the time to go. when i reached home, i called up kenn, and he was asking me question, and he said that if i go to church, my character will change in to a form that he dislike, but i asked him, change in the sense in which part, he said he have no idea. wait until i changed d, only he tell me. i was quite tension, i was raising up my voice towards him, i prayed to our Father during our discussion, i really need to discuss with kenn peacefully, He calmed my tension and emotion down, and i started to talk to in slow and cool. when kenn told me all, i felt that there is something around him that makes him to talk like that, i felt that is devil's works that is making him to talk like that so that i will not follow God's way anymore, and i felt that devil is doing something to pull me away from God, from our Father, our Lord. The devil is using kenn to pull me away from You.

I hung up and said good night to kenn and i cried, i cried out loud, and start to pray for him and my family, i could not stop crying, i have no idea why, i stopped for a while and went to toilet and wanted to wash my face, and i find that i felt i could not stand properly and i squated down on the floor and start to cry again. i seek for God's advice, is kenn the right one for me, i know that God had bring him to me, to save me, to pull me out from the way that i have been through last few years, He lead kenn to me, He planned both of us to meet each other in his own way, i was thankful today that God has brought him to me, but i was praying and seeking God's advice, He did not answered my prayer, but i had confidence that God is doing His work to help me. i went to sleep after that. i was tired and having migrain.

today sunday

i woke up 8.30am, i felt that God woke me up and asked me dont sleep back again, i slept back for 5 mins and went to bath straight. after my bath, i changed and on my laptop for a while, and went online for 10 mins. i prepared myself and walk to church for morning service, when i entered, i asked a lady where is the morning service, she told me that is on 1st floor, i thanked her and i use the stairs to go to the hall, i saw the pastor that i saw yesterday, he asked me go in, got the phamplet for this week. i went in and i was searching for the youths, and i saw edmund, he is waving at me, and i was glad that i talked to him about the morning service. for the morning service, we sang, and prayed and another pastor came and talked about UNITY, united we stand, divided we fall, he was talking the book of 1 Peter 1:2 2:3, ''there is a strength in unity. as a family, we must united. REMEMBER! the enemy is out there''  he said that without our united, we are not strong, that's why is important to unite others to join us in christianity, to join our family, to believe in God to accept christ.
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 when the service finished, i was lead by the other youths, to the rock cafe. i did not eat anything due to not hungry, i get to know a girl today name alesa and edward and sherlene, alesa and edward brought me to the ROCK power house, is a fellowship for youth, mainly is bible study for youths. we sang and pray, and we start the session, a sister was talking about the book of Daniel.

what i know is a king promote Daniel to become one of the adminstor of the administrator. another 2 administrator is envy of him and planned to get rid of him. but Daniel was so perfect that the other 2 administor could not find a single mistake, even a small mistake, so they planned a decree that the peoples only can praise the king, if you praise others, you will be thrown into the lions den. and they asked the king to signed the decree so that there is no alteration of any disobey.

but Daniel didnt give up to pray to Lord every day, 3 times a day, He is continue to pray even thou he know there is such law is been made, he went back home and went to upstairs and open his window towards Jerusalem and kneel down and pray to God. the other 2 administrator know that he is still praying towards God he was sent to the lion's den. the king was upset, the king doesn't want Daniel to enter the lion's den, because Daniel is the only one that king believe in due to Daniel characteristics and personality. he is trustworthy, he is loyal and more. but the king could not do anything, due to the signature that he had signed on the decree.

when Daniel was thrown into the lion's den, the king was worried, the king say to Daniel, "May your God . Whom you serve continually, rescue you!" a stone was brought and placed over the lion's den. and the king sealed it with his won signet ring and with the ring of his nobles. the king was worried and could not sleep, at the sun rise, the king got up and hurried to the lions' den. he called to Daniel, Daniel is alive. the lions did not eat him nor touch him,God has sent angel and he shut the mouths of the lions. God has found Daniel is innocent in his sight. Nor have he done any wrong before the king. (Daniel 6: 2-38)

God is the same, yesterday, today and forever. He do not show any partiality towards the one who surrender themselves to Him. learn how to seek for God first before you seek for the problems that you need to settle. everyday we have problems, God will give us problems so that we could grow up from the problems. He had planned everything for us as long as you need to commit your life, your family, your friends, your everything to Him, let Him do it for you, dont worry.

AMEN.!

ching ming for the Leow/Liaw/Leaw family.

it was 5.30am, went to my eepoh's house at Imbi with my mum and hui voon, and we went to pasar at ban shan pa with my cousins and aunts and my mum, bought all the stuffs that is needed, and we went off to fu jian yi shan for ching ming. we reached about 6.45am, the jam had start, but it was not that jam, so we still could drive up. we noticed that other people came earlier than us to avoid the jam and the sun. we were searching for parking and went to my grandparents grave, and majority of my relatives came, especially the Leow/Liaw/Leaw inner grandkids are compulsary to come. while waiting for my grandparents to finish the food, we took a few pictures of the whole group that is there for ching ming. after they sheng bui, our grandparents is full and we ate the stuffs and clean the place and went off to my uncle's grave, he is my 4th uncle, he pass away at year 2008 with throat cancar final stage, we were sad, and the kids is still young, the eldest is younger than me 1 year old, the 2nd one is 20 currently, the youngest is only 15 this year.

when we went there, while waiting for my uncle to finish his food, all of us are under the HOT SUN, and Heat, it was damn hot, we are using umbrellas to cover ourself. trust me the heat is burning.

when it comes to the sheng bui ceremony, is quite funny that my uncle actually wanted the 3 kids to sheng bui first only he is satisfied.

before going home, we went to connaught for dim sum, trust me, only our relatives, we have already taken 6 tables and is damn pack.. but it was nice.

i would like to pray for my grandparents and my uncle that they will feel better, even thou they dont know the presence of God, they are now suffering in the fire pit, God could not do anything due to they do not believe in God, but i really wanted to pray that their decendants will accept and believe in God. Father, please do Lead them to believe in you and accept christ. please Lord, Thank you Lord, In Jesus name, AMEN.

my grandparents.

left my uncle alone there still smilling, coz the sun is really too hot. haha

do you see me holding a pineapple?

my 4th uncle grave

my 4th uncle

the sun is too hot!!!i wonder how many umbrellas are there?

my 4th uncle wife, in orange color shirt.

on the way back to walk down from the hill.

our dim sum session.

End of DaY~

my Friends that came by my house for the so call yem cha session.

just some random pics that my friends had came to my house for the so call yem cha session.

i love them,

thank you God that i had spent time with my friends while i am alone at kl.

wonder what is erica doing? she is wearing my pants, is loose.. and she is using stethoscope to check whether she got heart beat or not. XD, hahahahahaha

ever see fong wun before. this is ali~ D feng.

ever see fong wun before. this is feli~ D wun

the leggy~

i am kinda wanted to molest louise and ali. louise find it boring in the first pic, but end up she is joining us too. hahaha, the molesting session start.

see any differences?XD

gosh...~

they are watching ye man nai nai.

End of DaY~